Bad Habit Halo (Single Release)

Bad Habit Halo is out today. 💜🔥

(written by Emily Ngyuen)

So yes, this one is mine. Not “cute little fun fact” mine. Not “Emily inspired the vibe” mine. This is my fingerprints on the glass, my boots on the floor, my bad decisions doing drum fills in the corner.

Lisa sings it like she stole my diary, set it on fire, and somehow made it catchy. Rude, honestly. Iconic, but rude.

This song is about the collision point between who I used to be and who I finally let myself become. The insecure kid sweating through hoodies in Texas summers. The “not their type” girl hiding behind a drumline. The one who thought taking up space was something other people got to do.

And then there’s me now.

Still 5’5”. Still loud enough to make that everyone else’s problem.

Bad Habit Halo lives right in that purple-lit place where confidence and guilt start throwing punches. It’s about desire, control, boundaries, temptation, and learning the difference between being wanted and being owned. Very important distinction. Please write that down before making terrible choices in parking lots.

The “bad habits” in this song are not just about being wild for the sake of it. I mean, sometimes they are, and I support that spiritually. But underneath the leather, neon, boots, and questionable impulse control, this song is about waking up.

It’s about realizing the parts of yourself people told you to shrink might actually be the most honest parts you have.

For me, a lot of that started in Austin. I grew up structured, disciplined, and invisible in all the ways that really mess with your head. Then Pamela walked into my life like a lit match with better hair and worse judgment, and suddenly the world got louder. She did not fix me. I was not a sad little project in need of repair. She challenged me. She made me curious about risk, desire, confidence, vulnerability, and all the dangerous little sparks I had been taught to keep locked away.

Once you feel that, you do not go back.

You can hear that tension all over the track: restraint versus release, power versus guilt, freedom versus the eyes on your back. I know what it feels like to want something and still choose yourself. I know what it feels like to play with sparks without handing someone the keys to the whole damn fire.

That is the point.

“I keep the lock, I keep the key / I feel the pull, still I choose me.”

That line is not a warning label. It is the whole operating system. So no, I am not cleaning this up. I am not softening it. I am not making it easier to digest because someone out there thinks confidence should arrive with a permission slip and a cardigan.

My halo glows violet, but it is not innocence. It is defiance. It flickers because I do. Growth is not clean. It is loud, messy, a little dangerous, and sometimes wearing boots it absolutely should not have bought. But if it gets you back to yourself, I say stomp harder.

So go stream it. Go scream it. Go feel it hit somewhere real.

Bad Habit Halo is yours now.

Try not to behave too much.

— Emily 💜🥁🔥